Frustrated!

I am so frustrated with my weight. I was so thin when I moved to Tennessee... I felt good about myself, and I could shop in normal stores and get normal clothes. After I moved I gained about 25 pounds, managed to take off about half that before the wedding, and since then have gained it all back, plus a little.

Why does it have to be so hard?!? I don't feel like I am eating super bad, and it seems like when I try to eat good, I always fail. I am sick of looking at myself in the mirror and feeling fat, not liking what I see and just plain feeling bad about myself.... I know Josh loves me no matter what, but I want to look good for him too! I want to feel good about myself again and be able to shop anywhere again.

Does anybody have any good tips? I would love to join weight watchers, but It costs money that we don't really have right now... I know I need to just get out and excercise, but that is always easier said than done, especially working 2 jobs and wanting to spend time with Josh.

Bleh... why couldn't God have just made us all the same size. That would have made life and shopping a whole lot easier.

New Job, Broke down car and the holidays...

So, I got a new Job! Well, I am still working at Starbucks part time, but I am now a receptionist at the Carson City Airport part time as well. It is cool, I started Friday, and it is going to be really easy. (at least I hope so!) So I will be working about 43-45 hours a week, some days at 4:30am. Yay! :-p
In other news, our (new) car is not working... The Serpentine Belt locked up. Josh is going to try and fix it, so hopefully it is just the tensioner, because that is the cheapest fix. It just stinks! We have only had it a few months. We haven't even registered it yet! (long story) haha.
So, I can't believe next week is already thanksgiving! We are going to my parent's house for thanksgiving, and Josh's cousin who lives in Salt Lake City is going to go with us. So that should be fun. On the day after thanksgiving, me and Josh and Lisa, and a bunch of friends are going to go up to Apple Hill, which is a tradition we started last year. It should be really fun! Then I am hoping I get Christmas eve off at Starbucks, so then we can stay at me parents house through the weekend, since our family is doing Christmas at my Grandmas on the 22nd. We can't afford to go back and forth. So we may end up spending our own little Christmas together.
In other news, a friend of mine (my only friend in Carson City... haha) Makes jewelry with her mom and aunt, and I showed her some of my stuff, and she thinks I should sell it, so they are doing a craft fair on December 8th and I am going to put some of my stuff in to sell. so hopefully that will go well and I can sell some stuff! (I have pictures of some things in my myspace pictures)
And I am doing a Tupperware party on the 30th! hopefully I can sell lots of things!
Anyways, I think that is all for now! until next time...