In a thoughtful mood.

Man.... we have almost been together for a month now. (feb 1st) It feels like so much longer than that. But at the same time, I look back, and I'm like... "wow... it's already almost February?" Time is a crazy thing. I can't believe how we have grown so close in such a short amount of time. I mean, yeah, we have been talking for longer than just a month... several months actually, but at the same time, I think he knows more about me than any of my other friends. mostly because we talk on the phone every night.... usually for over an hour. But it seems like we never run out of things to talk about. And I feel like I can talk to him about anything and everything.
I have no doubt in my mind he is my soulmate. I can't wait to marry him. I love you Josh! He is my other half. We complete each others sentences, laugh at the same dumb things, and are so comfortable with each other that we can fart in front of each other. Haha. (Hey! that's important!) lol. But yeah. I just wanted everyone to know, even though I know you all probably already know... If I haven't told you already, the constant huge grin on my face should give it away.
I hate the distance, but I know it is only making us stronger, and bringing us closer together intellectually and emotionally. And in God's time, I WILL find a job out there, and we will be together, but until then, we will continue to grow our relationship in other ways, do our devotional book over the phone, spend hours talking to each other, sending each other packages, and trusting that God knows what is best.
Sorry if this was completely random.... but I just felt like sharing. :-)

"the terrible horrible no good very bad day..."

Ok, so it's not as dreadful as the title makes it look. But today has been a pretty crappy day. It started out with me waking up slightly late (though not late enough to be bad...) and I got online and there was a comment from Josh saying "call me when you read this :-(" I knew it had to do with the job, and I knew it probably wasnt very good news. I was right. I didn't get the job at his school. That made me sad. I had my hopes up so high, and even though I know that things will work out, when you get your hopes up that high about something, and then it all comes crashing down, it sucks.
So then I had to drive to work, and the fog was super thick. big deal. at least there were no accidents, and I only had to encounter about 2 stupid drivers.
Once I got to work, I got to talk to Josh longer today then normal, which was the highlight of my day. :-) He has the ability to make me smile no matter how crappy I am feeling. So I am at work, and Reggie (I'm sorry, it's Regina now) comes in. I knew that the change was official (at least namewise) yesterday, but to see him/her in women's clothes is another thing. And I can't bring myself to call her Regina or Gina like she/he wants. I am so confused. It's just so wierd and akward to me. I mean, I am not judging her, and in no way am I going to ignore or be rude, it's just hard, ya know?
But yeah. and on top of all that, I am still sick... my nose is runny, my ears are still plugged, and I almost feel like I might be getting an ear infection for the first time in forever. I hate those! blah.
So yeah, that is the extent of my bad day so far.... hopefully it ends at that. That would be nice. I finished my marketing quiz, and got an 88%, so that was pretty good. After work I am going to go work out at Curves, then Sarah is going to come over and hang out, and we are gonna watch American Idol. :-) I admit... I love that show! hehe. so thats my day.
In other things.... I applied for a bunch more jobs today. (since I didn't get that other one.) I am soooo praying that I can find another good paying job. God obviously had a reason that I didn't get that other one, and I am really hoping it's not because he doesnt want me out there at this time, because that would suck. I want to be there with Josh more than anything right now. I just want him to be able to hold me when I am having a bad day like today, and tell me he loves me in person, and yeah.... I hate long distance. I hate the fact that I am so impatient.
He is so good to me. He treats me like a queen. he cares about me, and he shows it in everything he says and does. I love him. I am gonna marry him. Now I just gotta get out there to be with him....

so, until later...

I can't think of a clever title.

So yeah, I don't really know why I signed up for this. I already have myspace, and xanga, but I know no one will read this, unless I give them my link. :-) So if you are reading this, you are special! Haha.

But yeah, I don't know what to write about right now. I am tired. I am sick. I am bored, and I am pretty much brain dead at the moment.

so yeah, maybe I will post something clever next time. :-)